Seeking new adventures.

I’ve been wanting to start this for some time now. In fact, I’ve been paying for it for almost the same amount of time but, so here we are 6 months later – and I’m finally getting started!

As I have thought and thought about what to write about, I’ve decided that I just want to write. I’ve always been great at communicating in writing, much better than the can’t find the write word anxious version you might see in person. So I’m going to write my thoughts, goals, family, friends – LIFE. The life of a single mom (well having been single for most my life but most recently acquired the status of gf), living pay check to pay check because I cant afford my own lifestyle, and who is still trying to find her place in this world. I need some inspiration in my life and the BUJO with the horrible handwriting a.k.a. chicken scratch isn’t quite taking me anywhere yet, so ideally, my own writing may inspire me. If that can actually be a thing…?

At the start of a new year, I am creating a new chapter and hoping to make many changes in my life, as is the whole population and I have tried many new years, BUT this time is going to be different. I am tired of being in a rut, stuck in the mud, not going anywhere. I have things to do, adventures to seek, a purpose to fulfill and it’s going to happen. In 2009, I was ready for all of this and thought I was on the right track to leading an amazing life and I failed – just slightly though.

I moved to Switzerland to be a nanny and really enjoyed my time there. I didn’t make the many friends I had hoped for (but 2 great girls I can’t wait to meet again) or all in love with a handsome man with an amazing accent. I took great care of the kids, experienced lots of things I never had, and did lots of traveling. I traveled alone a lot which was great to be on my own time and do exactly what I wanted but it was also lonely at times. So more about Switzerland/Europe, but long story short, I ended up leaving before my contract was over with the family, and moved back home to Oklahoma. While living with my parents and job searching I “fell in love” with the completely wrong man, was pregnant within about two months, spent the next 10 months in hell, and finally gave birth to the girl that would change my life. After she was born, her dad and I tried to work it out, obviously it didnt. When my daughter was about 9 months old I landed a great job for a Public School district as a Nutrition Education Coordinator, bought a house, and now my daughter is almost 5! I was about to say that is all I’ve done in the past five-six years but I suppose that’s quite a lot. Working a full-time job, buying and maintaining a house, and raising a beautiful, smart and sassy girl for the past half a century is pretty damn good. Of course I’ve had many ups and downs, lots of help and love for both myself and my daughter from my parents whom I honestly dont think I would be here without, and sometimes dont I even know how i’ve made it this far, but I HAVE, WE have. And we are going places. I am thankful for my life. For my family and friends. And food. 😉 I am thankful that I have been through what I have because that is what has gotten me here and made me who I am today.

I am hoping to make this a daily thing but with so many daily things adding up on my daily to-do list…we’ll just see how it goes. 🙂

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